Long time no see

It's been quite sometimes since I last logged in and write something. Perhaps my life was too comfortable or maybe too busy. I lost most of my private time and personal space. I found some here and there. I found ways to get some rest or have a nice time with my boyfriend. Life still goes on as it is. Whether it is good or bad, it does not matter anymore. I'm going to enjoy every seconds of my life.:)

rough time

I guess i only write when my life is going downhill. I've always forgot about keeping a record of my life when I am on my easy way in life. I was happy to be back home for about 10 days, eventhough it was short, i think it was the happiest days in my life this year.
Bad luck started to hit on me since last Wednesday when I lost my wallet. Perhaps i shouldn't blame the luck because it was myself who was careless. I guess It was my fault entirely. And then, i got drunk in a gathering, and lost my cellphone on Thursday night. I got my phone back, but the fact that I got drunk makes me feel so bad about myself. I am not that kind of person and always hated those type of people.I feel like being away from home, my life drags me away from all the stuff that i believe. I miss home so much and I feel like quiting school and just leave this place this instance.However, I know that I am not a quiter. I am just going through a very rough time. Very rough. I wish i have somebody to talk to, but unfortunately i don't have many friends and none of my friends are here. I have to act tough in front of other people because i just don't want to seems week. I hate myself so much now eventhough i don't want to.

I guess this is for now.