Decluttered my wardrobe today. Putting away those pregnancy clothing and giving away clothes that I won't be wearing anymore. I have so many clothes that just sits there for years. Some because I could not fit in, some are those that just do not look good on my. Also, there are many saree materials that are not sew. Luckily my part time nanny-maid is willing to take the saree material as they can be sew into Baju Melayu as well. I believe owning less will give more space for new things to come.
Last night, my toddler had a rough night. He cried three times in his dream, even shouted as I did not attend to his need. I do not know why, but he seems to be having a tough time sharing me with his baby brother especially at night. I guess their age gap is too close. Day time, he would try to play with the baby. But at night, he starts to hold me very tight and do not want me to go near his baby brother. If I breastfeed the baby, he would just come and lie down on my other lap. Maybe he needs a little more time to feel secure. I hope he will get over it soon.
Yesterday, I did not have time to do my positive affirmation on blog. In fact, I was tuned towards the negative thoughts of worrying about the money. On top of that, I am having postpartum rashes popping out here and there on my knee, elbow, stomach and thigh. Doctor prescribed anti-histamine for me but it does not seems to tone the rashes down. I am trying not to scratch it as that can cause it to spread. Hmm... Really not sure what to do. But, I believe that life will show me the way! Life will. MY SOURCE OF INCOME IS INFINITE! I APPROVED MYSELF TO HAVE GREAT HEALTH! Yeah!!! Feeling great and motivated now!
Alright! That's it for now. Gotta get ready for a wedding dinner.
Saturday 22 August 2015
Thursday 20 August 2015
After three years...
Many things occurred over the past three years. I got into teaching, got married, had two lovely boys, and wondering if I could have lived any better than this. Well, my life is not perfect but definitely better than when I was in the graduate school back in 2009 to 2010. It is not that research life sucks, but somehow working long hours kills all the fun. If it was not the long working hour, I would have been so passionate with what I was doing. Now, teaching in a university opens up a new door for me to do research. I do not have to work long hour, but certainly requires a lot of dedication and passion. No one will torture you, or question you for chemical stocks. No one will bully you to clean the lab. But you definitely need a lot of self independence because of that. Thank god I have a very dedicated research partner and research students. If everything turns out well, I can probably do my phd with this. So, that's the update of my work life.
Actually, I am on confinement leave (leave after delivery) for two months at the moment.With a toddler (1 year 8 months old) and a new born (1 month 1 week old) at home, it is not easy to do ANYTHING. Fortunately, my husband got me a reliable part time maid. Both the babies are sleeping now, and so I have some time for myself. I was supposed to sleep but time is too previous to waste...I guess. I was listening to Louise Hay a while ago thinking if I should go to sleep, and then I got up and type this post. Hmmm....Life is good but not perfect, especially my financial status. After joining the university, I am able to enjoy the quality life of going in to and out from work on a flexi scheme. However, financially, I am broke. I guess I should admit... I am very broke indeed. Having my salary to be emptied every month by paying bills and still owing to my credit cards, the feeling is not good. Every month, it is just enough to cover the previous months debts. And debts accumulate as I have to pay car insurance, and other tiny winy stuff. Still, I consider myself to be lucky because my husband is paying for the house mortgages, or else I guess I would be homeless right now. :) Haha... I really need to make about an extra three thousand every month to have some saving. Or at least debt free. So I started to think what I could do online. For instance, open an online store. It is a good idea, the only problem is I do not know what to sell. Then, I thought of doing translation. Well? 0.02 USD per word, I will have to spend the whole night up doing it while changing diapers. If only they pay me better... Maybe I should just start to do 'POSITIVE AFFIRMATION' that Louise Hay was talking about and let life take over. Show me how to make an extra buck!:P No no no~ That is definitely not a positive affirmation. Okay, no more blabbling, and let's do an experiment. From now on, I will do my positive affirmation by posting it on my blog everyday. Let's see what happen.
DAY 1. Positive Experiment
My job pays well, it gets me through my daily expenses. And my source of income is constantly increasing. Thank you.
Well, will write again soon. As soon as my babies are asleep again.
Actually, I am on confinement leave (leave after delivery) for two months at the moment.With a toddler (1 year 8 months old) and a new born (1 month 1 week old) at home, it is not easy to do ANYTHING. Fortunately, my husband got me a reliable part time maid. Both the babies are sleeping now, and so I have some time for myself. I was supposed to sleep but time is too previous to waste...I guess. I was listening to Louise Hay a while ago thinking if I should go to sleep, and then I got up and type this post. Hmmm....Life is good but not perfect, especially my financial status. After joining the university, I am able to enjoy the quality life of going in to and out from work on a flexi scheme. However, financially, I am broke. I guess I should admit... I am very broke indeed. Having my salary to be emptied every month by paying bills and still owing to my credit cards, the feeling is not good. Every month, it is just enough to cover the previous months debts. And debts accumulate as I have to pay car insurance, and other tiny winy stuff. Still, I consider myself to be lucky because my husband is paying for the house mortgages, or else I guess I would be homeless right now. :) Haha... I really need to make about an extra three thousand every month to have some saving. Or at least debt free. So I started to think what I could do online. For instance, open an online store. It is a good idea, the only problem is I do not know what to sell. Then, I thought of doing translation. Well? 0.02 USD per word, I will have to spend the whole night up doing it while changing diapers. If only they pay me better... Maybe I should just start to do 'POSITIVE AFFIRMATION' that Louise Hay was talking about and let life take over. Show me how to make an extra buck!:P No no no~ That is definitely not a positive affirmation. Okay, no more blabbling, and let's do an experiment. From now on, I will do my positive affirmation by posting it on my blog everyday. Let's see what happen.
DAY 1. Positive Experiment
My job pays well, it gets me through my daily expenses. And my source of income is constantly increasing. Thank you.
Well, will write again soon. As soon as my babies are asleep again.
Monday 3 December 2012
It's strange. I left this blog untouched for almost a year now. The last time I logged in, I wrote about the end of 2011. Now, it's almost the end of 2012. This is my first log in 2012. Maybe the last.
A brief status update...Current job, lecturer at some university. Teaches some subjects that I am into and some that I am not. So far so good. Teaching life has been good to me compare to the prison-like grad school that tortured me most and the corporate life where I had to even do sales and marketing for the company. Lecturing is a dream job. It sounds all classy too, a professional job.
Students are good, not all of them but majority are good. Whereas I myself is very lack of confidence because I have left those subject I taught from the day I finished my final exam in my university. I have to relearn everything to teach. But this is a much easier and realistic things that I can do to improve myself for my task ; compare to when I work in the corporate, I was always left in vein did not know what to do.
Had lunch with my students from Material Science class. I felt like I was a student too. It is almost unbelievable that I am twenty seven now. Looking back, time just flashes by so fast. It does not slow down, it does not stop. 2012 is leaving and 2013 is coming.
Another goodbye; another welcome.
Story from an isolated cubicle
A brief status update...Current job, lecturer at some university. Teaches some subjects that I am into and some that I am not. So far so good. Teaching life has been good to me compare to the prison-like grad school that tortured me most and the corporate life where I had to even do sales and marketing for the company. Lecturing is a dream job. It sounds all classy too, a professional job.
Students are good, not all of them but majority are good. Whereas I myself is very lack of confidence because I have left those subject I taught from the day I finished my final exam in my university. I have to relearn everything to teach. But this is a much easier and realistic things that I can do to improve myself for my task ; compare to when I work in the corporate, I was always left in vein did not know what to do.
Had lunch with my students from Material Science class. I felt like I was a student too. It is almost unbelievable that I am twenty seven now. Looking back, time just flashes by so fast. It does not slow down, it does not stop. 2012 is leaving and 2013 is coming.
Another goodbye; another welcome.
Story from an isolated cubicle
Wednesday 14 December 2011
End of 2011
Getting nearer to the end, my mind is resetting itself getting ready for another beginning. Many things happened in year 2011. Now everything is flashing across the invisible screen in front of my eyes.
Got released from the prison of graduate school and jumped into a different engineering and sales field early this year. Transferred back to Malaysia in August leaving a place I'd lived for 8 years. Big changes moving to KL and not having the convenience of transportation like Seoul. Salary dropped fifty percent but could not complain because its a price to come home. Doubting if my job suits me. Doubting if I could afford a car (which I haven't bought). Doubting if I should try to venture into cosmetic field of my dream. So many doubts in 2011. But it has to come to an end.
For the beginning, I'm ready to make a beautiful year!
Got released from the prison of graduate school and jumped into a different engineering and sales field early this year. Transferred back to Malaysia in August leaving a place I'd lived for 8 years. Big changes moving to KL and not having the convenience of transportation like Seoul. Salary dropped fifty percent but could not complain because its a price to come home. Doubting if my job suits me. Doubting if I could afford a car (which I haven't bought). Doubting if I should try to venture into cosmetic field of my dream. So many doubts in 2011. But it has to come to an end.
For the beginning, I'm ready to make a beautiful year!
Babyblue
Today I found my babyblue brand used by some budget cosmetic company on a Watson sale brochure. It was heartbreaking! But this somehow reminded me to what I always wanted to do which is making and Branding my own cosmetic. Suddenly it hits me that I am not supposed to work as a salesperson. Every single nerves of mine is retaliating.
My dream is to write. My other dream is to have my own cosmetic brand. my another dream is to own a coffee shop and be a barista. All my dreams seems fun but my job is not. It is the same with what everybody is doing. It is not dreamy. Not ideal. I'm Giving myself another four years to study and get back into cosmetic.Maybe study herbs or ayuveda and implement the concept into my cosmetic in the future.hmm. Not sure about the success rate but I don't wanna live without trying.
Babyblue. Good bye.
My dream is to write. My other dream is to have my own cosmetic brand. my another dream is to own a coffee shop and be a barista. All my dreams seems fun but my job is not. It is the same with what everybody is doing. It is not dreamy. Not ideal. I'm Giving myself another four years to study and get back into cosmetic.Maybe study herbs or ayuveda and implement the concept into my cosmetic in the future.hmm. Not sure about the success rate but I don't wanna live without trying.
Babyblue. Good bye.
Monday 1 August 2011
Another day
Sitting at the last row of seats in the bus back home. Not going home straight today, going to the department store to change the jeans that I bought for his birthday. Being a girlfriend who got a boyfriend size wrong is ashamed. I donot know how I got it wrong. Perhaps I was distracted or confused with my brothers' sizes. Hmmm. Felt pretty bad for that mistake.
Anyway, my day at work is kind of calm today I have no idea if I made it that way or is it because my seniors didn't have any task for me. I admit that I went to hang out with friends because I only have vey few time left in Korea. I kind of just smile when my senior complained about his work load. Sorry, but I couldn't help. I am in the middle of quitting this company and entering the same one in a different country. Confusing! But things will be back on track soon. I just hope the work load there is appropriate because I don't think I can work like my senior here.
Transferred. On subway now. The journey is 31 minute on a container squeezing with the strangers. Simply unpleasant especially in summer. The odor of the sweat filled the air that I breath in, makes me wonder if I'm breathing in air or sweat. Disgusting? But that's unavoidable natural phenomena. Nature makes a lot of things, but one is to be contradict with the other. Yin and yang.
Writing a ridiculously freelance piece after getting off work, I noticed that today is just another day for a simple human being. Many people is having the same day as I do. A normal day.
I got to the department store and the place is closed for a day. But why today? Standing on a 9 cm heels, it hurts to walk around. However since I'm here, going to the vegetarian restaurant in the corner. It is called loving hut. Not that I am a vegetarian but my family is. Getting them some Korean cuisine in packets and cans, hoping that they would like the taste of Korean food. Walked out from the store with heavy plastic bag in my hand, I am putting another 2 kg of extra weight on my feet which are barely stable on the 9 cm heels. I regret I wore them, just to look a little slimmer in my skinny jeans.
Looking for the sport store that sells posture correcting support clothing. Walked with the extra weight on my vulnerable feet. The store is not there anymore. It is turned into some other store. Or is it I who forgot where it is? I have no idea.
In the subway again. This time on my way home. Pity my medium sized feet on the heels of cruelty. Fortunately there are many empty seats. I guess the next time i want to wear this heels and carry extra weight, I should lose some weight in advance.
My tortured little medium feet, finally one stop away from home. What a day! And it is no more than just another day.
Anyway, my day at work is kind of calm today I have no idea if I made it that way or is it because my seniors didn't have any task for me. I admit that I went to hang out with friends because I only have vey few time left in Korea. I kind of just smile when my senior complained about his work load. Sorry, but I couldn't help. I am in the middle of quitting this company and entering the same one in a different country. Confusing! But things will be back on track soon. I just hope the work load there is appropriate because I don't think I can work like my senior here.
Transferred. On subway now. The journey is 31 minute on a container squeezing with the strangers. Simply unpleasant especially in summer. The odor of the sweat filled the air that I breath in, makes me wonder if I'm breathing in air or sweat. Disgusting? But that's unavoidable natural phenomena. Nature makes a lot of things, but one is to be contradict with the other. Yin and yang.
Writing a ridiculously freelance piece after getting off work, I noticed that today is just another day for a simple human being. Many people is having the same day as I do. A normal day.
I got to the department store and the place is closed for a day. But why today? Standing on a 9 cm heels, it hurts to walk around. However since I'm here, going to the vegetarian restaurant in the corner. It is called loving hut. Not that I am a vegetarian but my family is. Getting them some Korean cuisine in packets and cans, hoping that they would like the taste of Korean food. Walked out from the store with heavy plastic bag in my hand, I am putting another 2 kg of extra weight on my feet which are barely stable on the 9 cm heels. I regret I wore them, just to look a little slimmer in my skinny jeans.
Looking for the sport store that sells posture correcting support clothing. Walked with the extra weight on my vulnerable feet. The store is not there anymore. It is turned into some other store. Or is it I who forgot where it is? I have no idea.
In the subway again. This time on my way home. Pity my medium sized feet on the heels of cruelty. Fortunately there are many empty seats. I guess the next time i want to wear this heels and carry extra weight, I should lose some weight in advance.
My tortured little medium feet, finally one stop away from home. What a day! And it is no more than just another day.
Friday 29 July 2011
Kahlua Milk
Caffeine addict,
even for an alcoholic drinks,
I choose the one that is fermented from coffee beans,
Kahlua.
Lactose addict,
having milk almost every morning,
even for an alcoholic drinks,
I choose the one the cocktail with milk in it,
Kahlua milk.
:P
even for an alcoholic drinks,
I choose the one that is fermented from coffee beans,
Kahlua.
Lactose addict,
having milk almost every morning,
even for an alcoholic drinks,
I choose the one the cocktail with milk in it,
Kahlua milk.
:P
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