Minimize to Maximize

Decluttered my wardrobe today. Putting away those pregnancy clothing and giving away clothes that I won't be wearing anymore. I have so many clothes that just sits there for years. Some because I could not fit in, some are those that just do not look good on my. Also, there are many saree materials that are not sew. Luckily my part time nanny-maid is willing to take the saree material as they can be sew into Baju Melayu as well. I believe owning less will give more space for new things to come.

Last night, my toddler had a rough night. He cried three times in his dream, even shouted as I did not attend to his need. I do not know why, but he seems to be having a tough time sharing me with his baby brother especially at night. I guess their age gap is too close. Day time, he would try to play with the baby. But at night, he starts to hold me very tight and do not want me to go near his baby brother. If I breastfeed the baby, he would just come and lie down on my other lap. Maybe he needs a little more time to feel secure. I hope he will get over it soon.

Yesterday, I did not have time to do my positive affirmation on blog. In fact, I was tuned towards the negative thoughts of worrying about the money. On top of that, I am having postpartum rashes popping out here and there on my knee, elbow, stomach and thigh. Doctor prescribed anti-histamine for me but it does not seems to tone the rashes down. I am trying not to scratch it as that can cause it to spread. Hmm... Really not sure what to do. But, I believe that life will show me the way! Life will. MY SOURCE OF INCOME IS INFINITE! I APPROVED MYSELF TO HAVE GREAT HEALTH! Yeah!!! Feeling great and motivated now!

Alright! That's it for now. Gotta get ready for a wedding dinner.

After three years...

Many things occurred over the past three years. I got into teaching, got married, had two lovely boys, and wondering if I could have lived any better than this. Well, my life is not perfect but definitely better than when I was in the graduate school back in 2009 to 2010. It is not that research life sucks, but somehow working long hours kills all the fun. If it was not the long working hour, I would have been so passionate with what I was doing. Now, teaching in a university opens up a new door for me to do research. I do not have to work long hour, but certainly requires a lot of dedication and passion. No one will torture you, or question you for chemical stocks. No one will bully you to clean the lab. But you definitely need a lot of self independence because of that. Thank god I have a very dedicated research partner and research students. If everything turns out well, I can probably do my phd with this. So, that's the update of my work life.

Actually, I am on confinement leave (leave after delivery) for two months at the moment.With a toddler (1 year 8 months old) and a new born (1 month 1 week old) at home, it is not easy to do ANYTHING. Fortunately, my husband got me a reliable part time maid. Both the babies are sleeping now, and so I have some time for myself. I was supposed to sleep but time is too previous to waste...I guess. I was listening to Louise Hay a while ago thinking if I should go to sleep, and then I got up and type this post. Hmmm....Life is good but not perfect, especially my financial status. After joining the university, I am able to enjoy the quality life of going in to and out from work on a flexi scheme. However, financially, I am broke. I guess I should admit... I am very broke indeed. Having my salary to be emptied every month by paying bills and still owing to my credit cards, the feeling is not good. Every month, it is just enough to cover the previous months debts. And debts accumulate as I have to pay car insurance, and other tiny winy stuff. Still, I consider myself to be lucky because my husband is paying for the house mortgages, or else I guess I would be homeless right now. :) Haha... I really need to make about an extra three thousand every month to have some saving. Or at least debt free. So I started to think what I could do online. For instance, open an online store. It is a good idea, the only problem is I do not know what to sell. Then, I thought of doing translation. Well? 0.02 USD per word, I will have to spend the whole night up doing it while changing diapers. If only they pay me better... Maybe I should just start to do 'POSITIVE AFFIRMATION' that Louise Hay was talking about and let life take over. Show me how to make an extra buck!:P No no no~ That is definitely not a positive affirmation. Okay, no more blabbling, and let's do an experiment. From now on, I will do my positive affirmation by posting it on my blog everyday. Let's see what happen.

DAY 1. Positive Experiment

My job pays well, it gets me through my daily expenses. And my source of income is constantly increasing. Thank you.


Well, will write again soon. As soon as my babies are asleep again.