Restless night

Some nights, you could just fall into sleep as soon as you lie down on the comfy bed. Some nights, no matter how you try to sleep, you are still widely awake. That is called restless night. Many factors can cause restless night, for instance high dose of caffeine consumption, or having money problem. Tonight, I am restless because of the coffee I had, and also some other problems. As I mentioned a few days ago that I am currently working part time in a small trading company, I have no income in the last month of the year. Having no money with debts in my account due to the loan that i got from my credit card, I could not help thinking about money. I am not that kind of person who concern too much about money. I always believed that money will come itself, somehow. But having no income triggered my security and faith. People around me always wonder why am I not flying home for holiday and so on,it is because I am not financially available for that. Besides that, got a job offer but couldn't decide whether to take it or not has been really harsh on me. I don't show it but I am having a hard time thinking especially when I am kind of in the middle of jobless and part time worker with no money. Broke! If you asked me now, do I want the job? My answer would be 'Yes' if my boyfriend is continuing his job here. Or else...I am not sure. Doubts grow from a small seed into a huge tree now. I don't really know what to do and there's 8 days left before I have to decide. What should my final decision be? And will it be a wise one? I have no idea. Restless night should end now. I just had some milk and hopefully it will help me sleep. Good night.