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One happy thought can make you fly

Spinning the wheel of memory, I felt like a kid again when I sat on a swing and started to fling myself as high as possible. Wow! That was almost twenty years ago when I first sitting on a swing feeling innocently happy. I was about three or four at that time, and I lived near the beach. I love walking by the beach and just running into the sea. Looking at the sea and smelling the salty scent of it used to make me feel like flying. And I used to envy the fishes because they get to live in the sea. But now, come to think about it, I wouldn’t want to become a fish.
People used to be happy with just a candy when they were kids. However, the innocent fades away as time passes by. Like in the little prince, we lost our imagination as our innocent disappears. Happiness is merely a nanometer away from you. All you need is one happy thought! Then you can fly! Like Peter Pans. Look at the smirk on your face! You are happy deep down inside!

Empty

Walked in vain.
Doubting my own existance.
Wondering what am I looking for.
It's empty.

I know that I am trapped,
in this materialistic realm,
in this so-called fame,
and I know it.

Why can't I escape?
Why am I still hesitating?
What is pulling me back?
Why am I stuck here?
Or am I?

I wish I could leave all these behind,
fly to that undiscovered piece of land,
get away from all the meaningless rat race,
and live...
But I'm afraid.

Bad Day by Daniel Powter

Bad Day by Daniel Powter

"Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day"


The most rightous lyrics I've ever heard...

Hesitation

Hesitation

I hesitate, and hesitation will keep on lingering around for a while.
Is it because I haven’t proceeded forward?
Or is it because I have proceeded, but into the wrong path.

I heard you say that there is no right or wrong,
I think so too.
Contradiction keeps on hanging around,
as my intuition tells me to go for something extreme and crazy;
while my rationality is telling me to stay.

I heard you say that I should listen to my heart,
And now I wonder which thoughts come from my heart.

Hesitate…

home sweet home

I left my room at 4.30a.m on 13 February 2009. I got up at four and it was the first time that I realized the scent in that room. I realized it because I'm leaving it again. And this leaving, is probably a slightly unwilling one. I could not sleep well two days before the day I had to leave. On February 13, I indeed was very tired. I felt like the first time when I left home five and a half years ago. So many thoughts were messing with my mind. The fact that I had to make a choice in this junction of life has been driving me crazy all these while. I came home intended to calm my mind and soul. And I did. However, the answer to my life was still in vain. I'm 23 years old and I'm walking on the same path I did when I was 18. I doubt that I've grown even a little. As I walked out from the room, I took a deep breath so that I would not forget the scent of my room. The one I've been sleeping in since I was eleven.

13 February 2008, I was working in Woori Bank as an intern. I was happy because I was just an intern and there were no stress at all. I had plenty of nice people working around me, and some internship friends who were there to have coffee with me when I'm bored. My boyfriend was away, back home in Malaysia at that time. On the other hand, I was missing Chinese New Year at home because of the Internship. Even though I had to spend Valentine's Day alone, I still felt fine because there were nothing for me to worry about.

Summer, 2008. I made an irrational decision. I decided to go home for more than 2 months because of homesick. Many people had strived looking for internships and jobs and I, just happened to settle on spending my peaceful summer at home. I fought with my boyfriend because of this for a while. But he finally gave up quarrelling with me as I was a stubborn as an ox. Yes, I had a very nice summer at home while I missed out all the chances of getting a job. Moreover, I was so confident that I would be easily employed if I try applying during the winter vacation. However, it seemed like fate is playing an unpredictable game as the economy has just plunged into the deepest when I started looking for a job. Good job! Now you lost your opportunity of getting a job because no company could afford to hire anybody now.
January 27, 2009. I went to the airport alone, heading home to Malaysia for Chinese New Year holiday. My mom was eagerly expecting me to come home while I was too, very excited to go back. However, leaving my boyfriend alone in the City of Stress again, made me feel bad a little. Home, and my boyfriend; I wished I could have both at the same time. As I took off from Seoul, I felt the stress was lifting up from my shoulder. It had been 6 months since I felt this light again. On the journey home, I was so keyed up but at the same time missing somebody who is always there for me in the City of Stress. I guessed life would always be paradoxical.
14 February 2009. Valentine’s Day had passed by as we had a small barbeque party with some close friends.
16 February 2009. I was supposed to go to the lab today, but I decided not to since I have some other stuff to take care of. I wonder if life in graduate school would be a waste of my time, or would it be an experiencing one? I just hope that I would be happy there. I sincerely hope that I would be…

Hong Kong

Transiting in Hong Kong for the third time on my way back to Malaysia. I went home last summer, about 6 months ago.I'm going back again.This time is for the Chinese new year. Maybe this will be the only trip in the next two years. Maybe. Well, i was supposed to use the internet within 15 minutes. So, i'm gonna go now.

Yishee from Hong Kong Airport